feeling like a christmas HAM

hey everyone!
so i feel all bloated and nasty after the holiday. My best friend and i are going on a diet as a new years resoloution. i will gain my willpower and lose all of this disgusting fat that i have let go for way too long. i promise i will blog more and let you girls know how im doing. thank you for all of your comments on my last post i really appreciate all of your amazing support! oh my god i have missed you all so much!!! leave me lots of comments and let me know how you all have been i promise i will try my hardest to get back to all of you. i am hoping to get a home computer sometime within the next 6 months or so. we are moving into a better apartment closer to our jobs and im thinking i will convince the hubby to agree to get us one! so hopefully i will be on a lot more.
got to go for now.
hope all of you had an amazing christmas!
hugs and kisses
xoxoxoxoxo
daisy

a quick update on my life

hello everyone!
i know its been forever since ive posted on this thing. and ive missed you all dearly. i think about this every day. how i need to get to the library to get in touch with all of my loyal followers and let everyone know how im doing.
im as fat as ever.
190 pounds.
im disgusting i dont even like looking in the mirrior. i need to get a computer at home so i can blog and stay on track. your words of encouragement are what kept me on track for so long.
please comment this.
i want to make this a daily thing but with my work schedule and my boyfriend taking up all of my time i dont know if i will be able to make a promise like that.
i met a guy at community service.
yes...community service.
we live together in our little one bedroom apartment and celebrated 7 months together yesterday,
i am gaining weight like crazy.
i have lost all self control.
someone please help!!!!
i love you all to death!
hugs and kisses from the whale named daisy.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

just a quick update....

ordered some really hardcore diet pills they call akavar .
yesterday was my 19th birthday....and yes im hungover.
i miss and love you all.
im getting my own apartment on the 11th of this month :)
your comments really raise my hope that i can get through this.
please keep in touch :)
kisses and hugs to all of you.
think thin
mwuah!!!
xoxoxo
amybear

so heres my life...

i moved out of my moms house and now im eating more than ever before. however...i got my tongue pierced the other day and all ive had in the past three days is half a can of french onion soup. it hurts too much to eat right now. im getting really lonely and im still huge. its raining and im pissed off. i wanna start losing weight again so bad but it seems that ive lost all of my willpower now that im not in school and i dont have daily access to a computer. i need a laptop so that i can carry it with me and blog any time i get hungry. im hungry right now but it seems that i dont have the energy to go through the pain of trying to suck down some more soup. so this is a good thing. lol. anyway...so im still in desperate need of a texting buddy to help me on my journey to 98 lbs. so if you are interested just leave me a comment with your email address and ill get back to you as soon as i possibly can. thank all of you for following me. i see that i now have a following of 91 and im so blessed to have this much support in this disgusting time in my life. i hate being so fucking fat. thank you all. i love you ladies!