Tuesday, November 25, 2008

my dillybar is a sweetie. i wuv him. <3

Muse “time is running out”

I think I'm drowning
I wanna break this spell
you've created

You're something beautiful
A contradiction
I wanna play the game
I want the friction

You will be the death of me
Yeah You will be the death of me
Bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it

Our time is running out
Our time is running out
You can't push it underground
You can't stop it screaming out

I wanted freedom
Bound and restricted
I tried to give you up
But I'm addicted

Now that you know I'm trapped
sense of elation
You'd never dream of
Breaking this fixation

You will squeeze the life out of me

Bury it I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it

our time is running out
our time is running out
You can't push it underground
You can't stop it screaming out
How did it come to this?

yeah You will suck the life out of me

Bury it I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it

our time is running out
our time is running out
You can't push it underground
You can't stop it screaming out
How did it come to this?

oUr TiMe Is RuNnInG oUt

i text mark today, and he told me to listen to the song "our time is running out" by Muse. it seriously makes me think of him.....ill post the lyrics.
got a new shirt, it has a tree on it =)

pictures of amybear <3

Monday, November 24, 2008

the best and the worst weekend ever

ok...so i went straight to crystals house on friday afternoon and ended up spending the night. we went to steveos house and babysat his little sisters. linsee and leslie. when we got back her totally hot older brother, Adam, was passed out from all of the alcohol in his system, on the couch. we decided to go to the convenient store and get a drink. on the way back we were stopped by a police officer. who ran a check on us, and we passed, he gave us a ride in the back of the cop car. yay!! ok...then on Saturday we went BACK to steveos, and it was me, crystal, steveo, and jazzy. we ended up going over to steveos friend Sean's house to drink. i spent 60 dollars that i didnt really have on booze. got completely fucked up. and ended up making out with this guy anthony. ugh. crystal came and saved me. and we all went outside and we were hanging out when crystals brother, adam, shows up. (his friend lives in the same apt. complex as Sean) anyway, i was sitting there, talking to a very fucked up Adam. and he grabs my face and starts kissing me. yeah...needless to say crystal was kind of mad. i ended up cheating on dylon. i screwed around, and im living with these huge hickies all over my fucking neck with no way to cover them up, no way to make them go away. i get really skanky when ive been drinking i guess. im really disgusted with myself.

Friday, November 21, 2008

A new Broadway musical is about your life. Come up with a title for the big show, and write a mini-review of it.

"Not Alone" is a riviting story of a young girl and her struggle with life.
drugs, sex, rock and role...and plenty of blood and metal.

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Listen. Write about what you hear, right now.

the clearing of a throat...the squeaking of a computer chair...dozens of computer keys click click clicking...the tap of an angsty foot in a clunky shoe tapping onto the side of a metal desk...a mouse clicking as the kid in front of me plays solitaire. coughing...someone sniffling...the scratching of fingernails against skin...an itchy problem. a sigh of boredom. tap tap tap go the keys....

thanks for the prompt "one minute writer"!!!

Monday, November 17, 2008

Write about something interesting that happened this weekend

hmmm....well, nothing really interesting happened this weekend. yesterday i went to crystals house, and her brother went to the store with us. he called shotgun, i drove, and he sat and talked to me. hes goregous...

Thursday, November 13, 2008

What modern technology would you have trouble living without?

my cell phone!!!
i swear, since ive lost my job, the thing NEVER leaves my hand. im texting, talking, or on the internet. i definatelt couldnt live with my kyocera lingo.

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

a million quotes by uncle oscar all jumbled together, so many of them make me think of mark "a gentleman never hurts a person unintentionally" ?

A cynic is a man who knows the price of everything but the value of nothing. Oscar Wilde A dreamer is one who can only find his way by moonlight, and his punishment is that he sees the dawn before the rest of the world. Oscar Wilde A gentleman is one who never hurts anyone's feelings unintentionally. Oscar Wilde A little sincerity is a dangerous thing, and a great deal of it is absolutely fatal. Oscar Wilde A man can be happy with any woman, as long as he does not love her. Oscar Wilde A man can't be too careful in the choice of his enemies. Oscar Wilde A man who does not think for himself does not think at all. Oscar Wilde A man's face is his autobiography. A woman's face is her work of fiction. Oscar Wilde A poet can survive everything but a misprint. Oscar Wilde A thing is not necessarily true because a man dies for it. Oscar Wilde A true friend stabs you in the front. Oscar Wilde A work of art is the unique result of a unique temperament. Oscar Wilde Ah, well, then I suppose I shall have to die beyond my means. Oscar Wilde Alas, I am dying beyond my means. Oscar Wilde All art is quite useless. Oscar Wilde All bad poetry springs from genuine feeling. Oscar Wilde All bad poetry springs from genuine feeling. To be natural is to be obvious, and to be obvious is to be inartistic. Oscar Wilde All that I desire to point out is the general principle that life imitates art far more than art imitates life. Oscar Wilde All women become like their mothers. That is their tragedy. No man does. That's his. Oscar Wilde Always forgive your enemies - nothing annoys them so much. Oscar Wilde Ambition is the germ from which all growth of nobleness proceeds. Oscar Wilde Ambition is the last refuge of the failure. Oscar Wilde America is the only country that went from barbarism to decadence without civilization in between. Oscar Wilde An excellent man; he has no enemies; and none of his friends like him. Oscar Wilde An idea that is not dangerous is unworthy of being called an idea at all. Oscar Wilde Anybody can be good in the country. There are no temptations there. Oscar Wilde Arguments are extremely vulgar, for everyone in good society holds exactly the same opinion. Oscar Wilde Arguments are to be avoided: they are always vulgar and often convincing. Oscar Wilde Art is the most intense mode of individualism that the world has known. Oscar Wilde As long as a woman can look ten years younger than her own daughter, she is perfectly satisfied. Oscar Wilde As long as war is regarded as wicked, it will always have its fascination. When it is looked upon as vulgar, it will cease to be popular. Oscar Wilde Between men and women there is no friendship possible. There is passion, enmity, worship, love, but no friendship. Oscar Wilde Bigamy is having one wife too many. Monogamy is the same. Oscar Wilde Biography lends to death a new terror. Oscar Wilde By giving us the opinions of the uneducated, journalism keeps us in touch with the ignorance of the community. Oscar Wilde Charity creates a multitude of sins. Oscar Wilde Children begin by loving their parents; after a time they judge them; rarely, if ever, do they forgive them. Oscar Wilde Consistency is the last refuge of the unimaginative. Oscar Wilde Conversation about the weather is the last refuge of the unimaginative. Oscar Wilde Death and vulgarity are the only two facts in the nineteenth century that one cannot explain away. Oscar Wilde Deceiving others. That is what the world calls a romance. Oscar Wilde Democracy means simply the bludgeoning of the people by the people for the people. Oscar Wilde Do you really think it is weakness that yields to temptation? I tell you that there are terrible temptations which it requires strength, strength and courage to yield to. Oscar Wilde Education is an admirable thing, but it is well to remember from time to time that nothing that is worth knowing can be taught. Oscar Wilde Every portrait that is painted with feeling is a portrait of the artist, not of the sitter. Oscar Wilde Every saint has a past and every sinner has a future. Oscar Wilde Everybody who is incapable of learning has taken to teaching. Oscar Wilde Everything popular is wrong. Oscar Wilde Experience is one thing you can't get for nothing. Oscar Wilde Experience is simply the name we give our mistakes. Oscar Wilde Experience is the name every one gives to their mistakes. Oscar Wilde Fashion is a form of ugliness so intolerable that we have to alter it every six months. Oscar Wilde Fathers should be neither seen nor heard. That is the only proper basis for family life. Oscar Wilde Hatred is blind, as well as love. Oscar Wilde He has no enemies, but is intensely disliked by his friends. Oscar Wilde How can a woman be expected to be happy with a man who insists on treating her as if she were a perfectly normal human being. Oscar Wilde How marriage ruins a man! It is as demoralizing as cigarettes, and far more expensive. Oscar Wilde I always pass on good advice. It is the only thing to do with it. It is never of any use to oneself. Oscar Wilde I am not young enough to know everything. Oscar Wilde I am so clever that sometimes I don't understand a single word of what I am saying. Oscar Wilde I am the only person in the world I should like to know thoroughly. Oscar Wilde I can resist everything except temptation. Oscar Wilde I can stand brute force, but brute reason is quite unbearable. There is something unfair about its use. It is hitting below the intellect. Oscar Wilde I choose my friends for their good looks, my acquaintances for their good characters, and my enemies for their intellects. A man cannot be too careful in the choice of his enemies. Oscar Wilde I have nothing to declare except my genuis. Oscar Wilde I have the simplest tastes. I am always satisfied with the best. Oscar Wilde I like persons better than principles, and I like persons with no principles better than anything else in the world. Oscar Wilde I never travel without my diary. One should always have something sensational to read in the train. Oscar Wilde I put all my genius into my life; I put only my talent into my works. Oscar Wilde I regard the theatre as the greatest of all art forms, the most immediate way in which a human being can share with another the sense of what it is to be a human being. Oscar Wilde I see when men love women. They give them but a little of their lives. But women when they love give everything. Oscar Wilde I sometimes think that God in creating man somewhat overestimated his ability. Oscar Wilde I suppose society is wonderfully delightful. To be in it is merely a bore. But to be out of it is simply a tragedy. Oscar Wilde I think that God, in creating man, somewhat overestimated his ability. Oscar Wilde I want my food dead. Not sick, not dying, dead. Oscar Wilde If one cannot enjoy reading a book over and over again, there is no use in reading it at all. Oscar Wilde If one could only teach the English how to talk, and the Irish how to listen, society here would be quite civilized. Oscar Wilde If one plays good music, people don't listen and if one plays bad music people don't talk. Oscar Wilde If there was less sympathy in the world, there would be less trouble in the world. Oscar Wilde If you are not too long, I will wait here for you all my life. Oscar Wilde If you pretend to be good, the world takes you very seriously. If you pretend to be bad, it doesn't. Such is the astounding stupidity of optimism. Oscar Wilde Illusion is the first of all pleasures. Oscar Wilde In all matters of opinion, our adversaries are insane. Oscar Wilde In America the President reigns for four years, and Journalism governs forever and ever. Oscar Wilde In America the young are always ready to give to those who are older than themselves the full benefits of their inexperience. Oscar Wilde In married life three is company and two none. Oscar Wilde In modern life nothing produces such an effect as a good platitude. It makes the whole world kin. Oscar Wilde It is a very sad thing that nowadays there is so little useless information. Oscar Wilde It is absurd to divide people into good and bad. People are either charming or tedious. Oscar Wilde It is always the unreadable that occurs. Oscar Wilde It is better to be beautiful than to be good. But... it is better to be good than to be ugly. Oscar Wilde It is better to have a permanent income than to be fascinating. Oscar Wilde It is only an auctioneer who can equally and impartially admire all schools of art. Oscar Wilde It is only by not paying one's bills that one can hope to live in the memory of the commercial classes. Oscar Wilde It is only the modern that ever becomes old-fashioned. Oscar Wilde It is through art, and through art only, that we can realise our perfection. Oscar Wilde It is what you read when you don't have to that determines what you will be when you can't help it. Oscar Wilde Keep love in your heart. A life without it is like a sunless garden when the flowers are dead. Oscar Wilde Laughter is not at all a bad beginning for a friendship, and it is far the best ending for one. Oscar Wilde Life imitates art far more than art imitates Life. Oscar Wilde Life is far too important a thing ever to talk seriously about. Oscar Wilde Life is never fair, and perhaps it is a good thing for most of us that it is not. Oscar Wilde Life is too important to be taken seriously. Oscar Wilde Man can believe the impossible, but man can never believe the improbable. Oscar Wilde Man is a rational animal who always loses his temper when he is called upon to act in accordance with the dictates of reason. Oscar Wilde Man is least himself when he talks in his own person. Give him a mask, and he will tell you the truth. Oscar Wilde Memory... is the diary that we all carry about with us. Oscar Wilde Men always want to be a woman's first love - women like to be a man's last romance. Oscar Wilde Men marry because they are tired; women, because they are curious; both are disappointed. Oscar Wilde Moderation is a fatal thing. Nothing succeeds like excess. Oscar Wilde Morality is simply the attitude we adopt towards people whom we personally dislike. Oscar Wilde Most people are other people. Their thoughts are someone else's opinions, their lives a mimicry, their passions a quotation. Oscar Wilde Most people die of a sort of creeping common sense, and discover when it is too late that the only things one never regrets are one's mistakes. Oscar Wilde Mr. Henry James writes fiction as if it were a painful duty. Oscar Wilde No great artist ever sees things as they really are. If he did, he would cease to be an artist. Oscar Wilde No man is rich enough to buy back his past. Oscar Wilde No object is so beautiful that, under certain conditions, it will not look ugly. Oscar Wilde No woman should ever be quite accurate about her age. It looks so calculating. Oscar Wilde Nothing can cure the soul but the senses, just as nothing can cure the senses but the soul. Oscar Wilde Nothing is so aggravating than calmness. Oscar Wilde Now that the House of Commons is trying to become useful, it does a great deal of harm. Oscar Wilde One can survive anything these days, except death, and live down anything except a good reputation. Oscar Wilde One can survive everything, nowadays, except death, and live down everything except a good reputation. Oscar Wilde One of the many lessons that one learns in prison is, that things are what they are and will be what they will be. Oscar Wilde One should always be in love. That is the reason one should never marry. Oscar Wilde One should always play fairly when one has the winning cards. Oscar Wilde One's past is what one is. It is the only way by which people should be judged. Oscar Wilde One's real life is so often the life that one does not lead. Oscar Wilde Only the shallow know themselves. Oscar Wilde Ordinary riches can be stolen; real riches cannot. In your soul are infinitely precious things that cannot be taken from you. Oscar Wilde Our ambition should be to rule ourselves, the true kingdom for each one of us; and true progress is to know more, and be more, and to do more. Oscar Wilde Patriotism is the virtue of the vicious. Oscar Wilde Perhaps, after all, America never has been discovered. I myself would say that it had merely been detected. Oscar Wilde Pessimist: One who, when he has the choice of two evils, chooses both. Oscar Wilde Questions are never indiscreet, answers sometimes are. Oscar Wilde Quotation is a serviceable substitute for wit. Oscar Wilde Ridicule is the tribute paid to the genius by the mediocrities. Oscar Wilde Romance should never begin with sentiment. It should begin with science and end with a settlement. Oscar Wilde Selfishness is not living as one wishes to live, it is asking others to live as one wishes to live. Oscar Wilde Seriousness is the only refuge of the shallow. Oscar Wilde Society exists only as a mental concept; in the real world there are only individuals. Oscar Wilde Some cause happiness wherever they go; others whenever they go. Oscar Wilde Success is a science; if you have the conditions, you get the result. Oscar Wilde The advantage of the emotions is that they lead us astray. Oscar Wilde The basis of optimism is sheer terror. Oscar Wilde The books that the world calls immoral are books that show the world its own shame. Oscar Wilde The critic has to educate the public; the artist has to educate the critic. Oscar Wilde The cynic knows the price of everything and the value of nothing. Oscar Wilde The difference between literature and journalism is that journalism is unreadable and literature is not read. Oscar Wilde The good ended happily, and the bad unhappily. That is what fiction means. Oscar Wilde The imagination imitates. It is the critical spirit that creates. Oscar Wilde The man who can dominate a London dinner-table can dominate the world. Oscar Wilde The moment you think you understand a great work of art, it's dead for you. Oscar Wilde The old believe everything, the middle-aged suspect everything, the young know everything. Oscar Wilde The one charm about marriage is that it makes a life of deception absolutely necessary for both parties. Oscar Wilde The only thing to do with good advice is to pass it on. It is never of any use to oneself. Oscar Wilde The only way to get rid of temptation is to yield to it... I can resist everything but temptation. Oscar Wilde The public is wonderfully tolerant. It forgives everything except genius. Oscar Wilde The pure and simple truth is rarely pure and never simple. Oscar Wilde The salesman knows nothing of what he is selling save that he is charging a great deal too much for it. Oscar Wilde The true mystery of the world is the visible, not the invisible. Oscar Wilde The truth is rarely pure and never simple. Oscar Wilde The typewriting machine, when played with expression, is no more annoying than the piano when played by a sister or near relation. Oscar Wilde The well bred contradict other people. The wise contradict themselves. Oscar Wilde The world has grown suspicious of anything that looks like a happily married life. Oscar Wilde The world is a stage, but the play is badly cast. Oscar Wilde The world is divided into two classes, those who believe the incredible, and those who do the improbable. Oscar Wilde There are many things that we would throw away if we were not afraid that others might pick them up. Oscar Wilde There are only two kinds of people who are really fascinating - people who know absolutely everything, and people who know absolutely nothing. Oscar Wilde There are only two tragedies in life: one is not getting what one wants, and the other is getting it. Oscar Wilde There is a luxury in self-reproach. When we blame ourselves we feel no one else has a right to blame us. Oscar Wilde There is always something infinitely mean about other people's tragedies. Oscar Wilde There is always something ridiculous about the emotions of people whom one has ceased to love. Oscar Wilde There is no necessity to separate the monarch from the mob; all authority is equally bad. Oscar Wilde There is no sin except stupidity. Oscar Wilde There is no such thing as a moral or an immoral book. Books are well written, or badly written. Oscar Wilde There is nothing in the world like the devotion of a married woman. It is a thing no married man knows anything about. Oscar Wilde There is nothing so difficult to marry as a large nose. Oscar Wilde There is only one class in the community that thinks more about money than the rich, and that is the poor. The poor can think of nothing else. Oscar Wilde There is only one thing in life worse than being talked about, and that is not being talked about. Oscar Wilde There is something terribly morbid in the modern sympathy with pain. One should sympathise with the colour, the beauty, the joy of life. The less said about life's sores the better. Oscar Wilde There's nothing in the world like the devotion of a married woman. It's a thing no married man knows anything about. Oscar Wilde These days man knows the price of everything, but the value of nothing. Oscar Wilde This suspense is terrible. I hope it will last. Oscar Wilde Those whom the gods love grow young. Oscar Wilde To expect the unexpected shows a thoroughly modern intellect. Oscar Wilde To lose one parent may be regarded as a misfortune; to lose both looks like carelessness. Oscar Wilde To love oneself is the beginning of a lifelong romance. Oscar Wilde True friends stab you in the front. Oscar Wilde We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars. Oscar Wilde What is a cynic? A man who knows the price of everything and the value of nothing. Oscar Wilde What we have to do, what at any rate it is our duty to do, is to revive the old art of Lying. Oscar Wilde When a man has once loved a woman he will do anything for her except continue to love her. Oscar Wilde When good Americans die they go to Paris. Oscar Wilde When I was young I thought that money was the most important thing in life; now that I am old I know that it is. Oscar Wilde When the gods wish to punish us they answer our prayers. Oscar Wilde Whenever a man does a thoroughly stupid thing, it is always from the noblest motives. Oscar Wilde Whenever people agree with me I always feel I must be wrong. Oscar Wilde While we look to the dramatist to give romance to realism, we ask of the actor to give realism to romance. Oscar Wilde Who, being loved, is poor? Oscar Wilde Why was I born with such contemporaries? Oscar Wilde Woman begins by resisting a man's advances and ends by blocking his retreat. Oscar Wilde Women are made to be loved, not understood. Oscar Wilde Women are never disarmed by compliments. Men always are. That is the difference between the sexes. Oscar Wilde Women are never disarmed by compliments. Men always are. That is the difference between the two sexes. Oscar Wilde Women love us for our defects. If we have enough of them, they will forgive us everything, even our gigantic intellects. Oscar Wilde Work is the curse of the drinking classes. Oscar Wilde

If you had the opportunity to write as a career, what would you write?

(thank you in advance to the "one minute writer" for the prompt!)

i would write books. i would be a published author living off of the income from my literature. i would write about real life stuff. teenage pregnancy, drug abuse, marriage, kids, eating disorders, all of that completely infatuates me. ive written a book, and im hoping to get it published as a book for young teens. its called "battlescars" and its all about this girl Skye's teenage life.as a freshman in high school she falls in love with a senior named Reyes, who has his own apartment, and car. she ends up pregnant, and the book is mainly about their life together, during her pregnancy and up until the baby is about 3. Skye has a little girl, and names her Annabell. Reyes' behavior towards Skye becomes mean and abusive. he starts to hit her. all the while reyes is cheating on skye with skye's slutty best friend, Nina. eventually, into skye's senior year of high school, she meets a guy named Rick. Rick lives alone in an apartment, drives a nice car, comes from a well-off family, has a steady job. he saves Skye and Annabell from Reyes. he opens his home to them one night after a particularly rough fight with Reyes, and eventually Skye and Annabell just sort of become a fixture in Rick's life.

its a good book =) im very proud of it.
maybe one day i can write another one, and possibly become the writer ive always wanted to be.

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

what is...?

What is something you dislike about yourself? my weight
What is something you do well? write
What is your favourite room in your home and why? my bedroom, theres a whole paragraph on here somewhere about that
What is a good neighbour? someone QUIET
What is the worst thing parents can do to their children? not teach them everything they know
What is your favourite time of day? about....2pm
What is your idea of a dull evening? hmmm....sitting at someone else's house and doing nothing
What is the best way to treat meddlesome people? ignore them
What is something you are optimistic about? the fact that life will eventually be ok
What is something you are pessimistic about? i try to stay optimistic
What is your most indispensable possession and why? my art collection...it means a lot to me
What is the meaning of "He laughs best who laughs last"? i dont know...
What is your favourite song and why? i have many...i like "iris" by the goo goo dolls
What is the best birthday present you ever received? hmmm...houseshoes
What is the best birthday present you could receive? a big birthday card signed by all of my friends and family...one of the home made ones out of a big poster board
What is something that makes you feel sad? global warming
What is your favourite book and why? the great gatsby...it reminds me of mark
What is something that really bugs you? people who say they'll call and then dont
What is something that really makes you angry? when no one will let me talk, or im being talked over
What is the best advice you ever received? "to be yourself in a world which is trying its hardest day and night to make you everyone else, is to fight the hardest battle known to man, and to never stop fighting."
What is your favourite holiday? What makes this holiday special? thanksgiving, me and my mom always do something, just me and her, and it's always fun.
What is your favourite day of the week? saturday...nothing to do during the day, and a graveyard shift at night...its cool.
What is your favourite month? Why? march...my birthday!!!

what do you love or hate about cooking?

i love the smell, and the way it makes the whole house warm
i hate waiting.
i love the feeling of accomplishment afterwards.

(this and all other writing prompts provided by "the one minute writer" thank you!)

Tomorrow morning you can wake up with a superpower of your choice. What is it?

i would be able to control time. woke up 2 hours late? turn back time...
want the extra sleep? freeze time and get it.
leave time frozen for 8 or 9 hours if you want to...
while you catch up on your beauty rest.
reeeeally liked lunch? rewind, and eat it again.
hate algebra class? fast forward through it.
dont want to work? fast forward through that too.
you still get paid for the same hours...
i would totally be the controller of time.

What pair of shoes in your closet best represents who you are?

my plain black and white converse. overlooked and comfortable.
theyre all old and reliable
just like me...
reliablel ol amy.
but i love the shoes!

You have two hours to do something relaxing, and a budget of $100. What will you do?

i dont do very many of those!
maybe...an eyebrow waxing, and a quick lunch.

"i know the world is cold and decieving, but ill keep my head up like my nose is bleeding" -lil wayne

Write about a war veteran you have known of, or known personally.

i didnt know him personally, but my papi roy was part of the korean war. from what i hear he was an amazing man.
i think he was a drug addict...
and my grandma hated him...
but my grandma hates everyone.

Monday, November 10, 2008

Where is your favorite place in your home?

being 17, id have to say that my favorite place in my home would have to be my bedroom. in my room, i can lay under my heating pad, watch a movie on my Polaroid HDTV, paint, write, or staple crap to my walls, i can listen to music on my stereo, talk on my phone (even if the conversation isnt "appropriate") with Dylon, Mark, or Crystal. i can lay there, think, and be...Amy. i can cry, or laugh, or dance, or walk around naked, i can be sad, or happy, or crazy, or mad, i can curse, and smoke, and make a mess (as long as i clean up)
and the best part?
my mom is too afraid to come in.
its the one room in my tiny little apartment that my mom has never entered (besides my bathroom, which is connected to the room) im thinking about getting a tiny fridge to go in it actually, and filling it with bottled water, slim fast, milk and cereal, baby carrots, apple slices, and graham crackers =)

(like always, prompt provided by "the one minute writer")

Describe the first pet you remember having, if youve never had one, what would you like?

i had a cat, it was actually a kitten, we had named her Chewy Mashed Potatoes and Gravy...
thats right.
i want a big, fat, fluffy white cat with a bad attitude named Gatsby.
Dylon loves kitties
"awww, listen to her shes got her motor goin for me, do you hear her?"
hes a pussy magnet, =)
im allergic to cats...
but i can get some kind of medicine for that, right?

Friday, November 7, 2008

"hand in my pocket" lyrics

I'm broke but I'm happy
I'm poor but I'm kind
I'm short but I'm healthy, yeah
I'm high but I'm grounded
I'm sane but I'm overwhelmed
I'm lost but I'm hopeful baby
What it all comes down to Is that everything's gonna be fine fine fine I've got one hand in my pocket And the other one is giving a high five
I feel drunk but I'm sober
I'm young and I'm underpaid
I'm tired but I'm working, yeah
I care but I'm worthless
I'm here but I'm really gone
I'm wrong and I'm sorry baby
What it all comes down to Is that everything's gonna be quite alright I've got one hand in my pocket And the other one is flicking a cigarette
What it all comes down to Is that I haven't got it all figured out just yet I've got one hand in my pocket And the other one is giving the peace sign
I'm free but I'm focused
I'm green but I'm wise
I'm shy but I'm friendly baby
I'm sad but I'm laughing
I'm brave but I'm chicken shit
I'm sick but I'm pretty baby
And what it all boils down to Is that no one's really got it figured out just yet I've got one hand in my pocket And the other one is playing the piano
What it all comes down to my friends Is that everything's just fine fine fine I've got one hand in my pocket And the other one is hailing a taxicab...

i like to think of this song kind of as my theme song. it describes me perfectly 'short, healthy, young, underpaid, tired but im working, giving a peace sign"
it all makes sense

Coin a word to describe your present life.


What affect has a child, whether yours or someone else's, had on your life?

(prompt from the "one minute writer")

hmmm...let's see... one of my best friends had a baby last year, it was right after her senior year of high school, on the anniversary of 9/11. his name is damian, hes about 2 months old now, yes, he was goregous, and he smelled amazing, and he was so tiny and bright eyed...but the look on my friends face, the look of pure exaustion, and frustration, made me realize that im not ready to be a mommy, even if my baby is as adorable as hers is!

growing up...

it seems like all of a sudden, the rest of my life depends on the decisions that i make right now.
when high school is over, and ive graduated, do i wait to go to college, stay here, and get an apartment to share with dylon? do i start working right away? do i move in with my dad and go to college? do i stay here and go to college? how am i going to be with dylon? how am i supposed to decide the rest of my life on what i know right now? it just doesnt seem like ive been alive long enough to make such serious decisions...
i want to be with dylon, thats one thing that im sure of.
we finally got to talk last night, for a couple of hours, we had mediocre phone sex...
it was alright.
he's expecting me to go to my dad's house, but then there's my job, and college, and everything else.
being 18 shouldnt have to be so hard.
my mom wants me to stay here, and live with her, and go to the community college,
my dad wants me to move in with him, and go to college there, my brother thinks that's a good idea, my boyfriend wants us to be together, in the same house, in the same bedroom, in the same bed, every night,
but what does AMY want?
Amy doesnt know...
amy knows that EVENTUALLY she wants to go to college, amy knows that she is going to have to work super hard if she wants to have enough money to go to school, AND have an apartment,
maybe...a roomate?
maybe...taking a year off to work, and save up, maybe picking up another job, maybe taking a math class right out of high school, maybe....maybe hoping against hope that my dad will let Dylon come and stay too...
we have to find dylon a job, and he needs a drivers lisence, and a job...did i mention a job?

Thursday, November 6, 2008

What radio station do you listen to the most?

94.5 the buzz!!! the new rock alternative!

If you were on the game show Jeopardy!, what interesting story would you tell to introduce yourself?

"hmm...well Alex...when i was in the fifth grade i spent almost all of my time reading, i read the entire Harry Potter series in a matter of weeks! i remember going to the movies to see the second one "harry potter and the chamber of secrets" with a friend of mine and someone had to call the usher to shut us up! The only problem was the usher ended up escorting the people NEXT to us out of the theatre!"

(prompt from "the one minute writer")

Wednesday, November 5, 2008


who says that we cant dance in public, or sing until out lungs run out of breath? who says we shouldnt ride in the cart at the store, even if were too big...
why cant i get paint all over the place?
or laugh until i cry?
or drink a the WHOLE bottle of vodka?
or smoke the WHOLE pack of cigarettes?
why shouldnt i have sex with her, or him, or them?
society doesnt understand that some people will fight the rules, regardless of the consequences...
guess thats why the cops dont like me very much...


been using life the wrong way, and hoping for things hasnt gotten me anywhere but right back where i started. i miss dylon, and i definately cant wait to talk to him again...
its wednsday...so that makes.....two days and counting...
its like...hes in the army or something...
and here i am waiting for him to come back to me.
it wont be long now.
sometimes i think i pretend he's here.
i have a cough to end all coughs at this point in time, and im ready for it to be over,
"sing me to sleep, sing me to sleep, im tired and i want to go to bed"
its sooooo time to go back to bed,
i have a research paper due on....next wednsday?
and i completely lost the book thats is over...oops.
project playlist is my new best friend.

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

my days as a teenage dumbass.

so im sick like a dog and in the midst of a 1 week suspension from work, maybe it isnt so bad that i dont have to work this week though, i have a lot of school work to catch up on.
dylon and i have it worked out to where we talk on fridays now.
not often enough, but only until he gets his new cell phone.
we'll be ok. anyways, i have a headcold from the depths of hell, and im all snotty and tobacco deprived. for the next three days theres no leaving campus for lunch, no crystal, not Raymond, no spending lunch at whataburger and smoking, why do i have to pick people so much younger than me for friends?
so instead im sitting here in front of the computer in the art room and eating graham crackers and water. i think ill go to whataburger tonight, and get a grilled chicken sandwich to eat for lunch tomorrow. im about ready to die with all of this bullshit, why should seniors even have to come today? theres no real reason, were just taking up space. ANYWHO
gonna go make a project playlist i think. later-ater.