i dont feel disgusted.
i had a bad eating day.
i had a sandwich, and some other stuff, so when i got home, i had my first successful purge in the
shower. i was happy about it.
i felt...clean inside.
like it didnt even really matter anymore.
i felt like everything was going to be ok.
i now have a dirty secret.
it was sad because i was proud of it, and there was no one to tell.
you cant just pick up your cell phone and say "hey, i just threw up, congratulate me."
i wish i had a pro ed friend =(
on a happier note, today, all ive had is two bottles of water, and a few bites of yogurt at breakfast yay for me. hee hee.
im going to try to keep the trend going today, im going to drink another bottle of water.
and maybe eat half a salad at lunch or something.
i might see if i cant purge up something after school.
no matter how little i eat, i still feel full.
i really want to get rid of it.